||[Nov. 29th, 2006|01:21 am]
The astonishing journal of the astonishing man
• Reliable and adaptable; can easily cope with changing situations
I actually wrote that on my resume without understanding or experiencing the meaning of it until now...
I always knew that when you're working in sales -- an environment that demands constant achievement of monthly quotas, you have to expect that someone's bound to give up. In the essence, the process of turnover becomes quick. You lose a colleague and the following week, you meet a fresh one from college. It's like a pair of shoes. That's how things are usually in my line of work. However, something came up. For some reason, the company decides to freeze hire and eliminate all contractual employees working under an outsourced company thus, wiping out 75% agents in direct sales alone. I was...distraught by this. It dawned on me that by next year, there will only be about 30 agents left. Then, that's that. No one will get hired. No one will get promoted. And of course, if a proprietary such as I won't be able to make it to regularization, that's going to be another loss. I wasn't prepared for that situation too.
I wasn't also prepared to adapt in an environment to face a new boss, since our current boss will tend her resignation effective by year's end. With the shit that just happened, I'm not surprised anymore that she will pull that trigger. Besides, I heard she's got a better offer and she's biting it good.
Now as for me, that part up there on my resume? That's going to be a contributing factor why my job's in jeopardy right now. The numbers are just one thing. But when I lost the very reason of why I still work in this shithole, I suddenly lost my drive to push myself further in succeeding here.
But despite of all these things, I still try to cheer myself up. I look at this at a different perspective and see this...as a learning experience. I tried my best to forget it by giving everything what’s left in me and enjoy what seem to be my last days here in Amex. After all, I started here thinking this could be a stepping stone in building my career. Maybe it's time for me to move on and move one step forward now...
The only question is, "where?"