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January 22 - 28, 2006 [Jan. 29th, 2007|08:40 pm]
The astonishing journal of the astonishing man
[emplacement |Tomas Morato Ave. QC]
[musique |Rebuilding (Rubber Inc remix) -- Sound]

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acclimatize [Nov. 29th, 2006|01:21 am]
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[emplacement |Tomas Morato Ave. Q.C.]
[musique |Furlan -- Queso -- Queso]

• Reliable and adaptable; can easily cope with changing situations



I actually wrote that on my resume without understanding or experiencing the meaning of it until now...


I always knew that when you're working in sales -- an environment that demands constant achievement of monthly quotas, you have to expect that someone's bound to give up. In the essence, the process of turnover becomes quick. You lose a colleague and the following week, you meet a fresh one from college. It's like a pair of shoes. That's how things are usually in my line of work. However, something came up. For some reason, the company decides to freeze hire and eliminate all contractual employees working under an outsourced company thus, wiping out 75% agents in direct sales alone. I was...distraught by this. It dawned on me that by next year, there will only be about 30 agents left. Then, that's that. No one will get hired. No one will get promoted. And of course, if a proprietary such as I won't be able to make it to regularization, that's going to be another loss. I wasn't prepared for that situation too.

I wasn't also prepared to adapt in an environment to face a new boss, since our current boss will tend her resignation effective by year's end. With the shit that just happened, I'm not surprised anymore that she will pull that trigger. Besides, I heard she's got a better offer and she's biting it good.

Now as for me, that part up there on my resume? That's going to be a contributing factor why my job's in jeopardy right now. The numbers are just one thing. But when I lost the very reason of why I still work in this shithole, I suddenly lost my drive to push myself further in succeeding here.

But despite of all these things, I still try to cheer myself up. I look at this at a different perspective and see this...as a learning experience. I tried my best to forget it by giving everything what’s left in me and enjoy what seem to be my last days here in Amex. After all, I started here thinking this could be a stepping stone in building my career. Maybe it's time for me to move on and move one step forward now...


The only question is, "where?"
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The Out of Body Special [Oct. 24th, 2006|10:51 pm]
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[emplacement |Tomas Morato Ave. Q.C.]

Now I had an amex colleague once who told me he had a band. I didn't have any idea what they were all about until I saw this video awhile ago. I was left fucking astonished. I never realized he had an amazing voice. He wasn't much of a talker, really. On the subject of music, he didn't gave out too much details. I figured that's just him. But you know what I predict? He and his band are going to make it big out there...pretty soon. I just know...

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xangsane [Sep. 30th, 2006|02:49 pm]
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[musique |The word 'Hurricane' -- Air -- OST: The Virgin Suicides]

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The aftermath of Thursday's weather still lingers through my mind. I know it already cost a lot of people their homes and lives, but I also believe it changed them. Most of them adapted and grew stronger -- probably even smarter. Others may have turned over a new leaf.

In my case, it was...different.

I brought the storm within me...to the point where I ultimately dragged myself down. Yesterday, I pulled a prank on a noob teammate, cheated on our monthly product exam (and got caught doing it) and then lied about having a client call just to avoid the intense rush hour. I know it sounds pathetic for me to tell these things, but when you do all these in just one day, it’s hard to get rid of your guilty conscience. I just know I smudged my career already and I feel ashamed of it.

The good news is that I felt sorry for what I did. This isn't who I am. This was not taught to me as I made my way here. But when you’re desperate, you just do what you can to survive...by any means necessary.

I've already resided on the fact that I won’t be staying on this job for too long. As a matter of fact, I'm only giving myself until November. Whether or not I make it as a regular employee, I'll be leaving this job to find a new one. I've already made too many mistakes for me to stay here.
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28 ended at 82 [Sep. 23rd, 2006|02:07 am]
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[emplacement |Tomas Morato Ave. Q.C.]
[musique |Big Wings -- Bows -- Blush]

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It was a perfect way to end a 28-year championship drought. My alma mater won this year’s NCAA tournament and we won it by just a lousy point. At first I thought, we would’ve won this all the way by acquiring coach Koy Banal and a 6-foot-8 Nigerian juggernaut named Samuel Ekwe. But PCU proved to be lethal by forcing a do-or-die Game 3 back at the old Araneta Coliseum for the championship. I’m just happy that we bagged Game 3 and the trophy.

The only thing that sucks was that I never got to watch the whole thing. I watched Game 2 (the only game I watched the entire season) and we lost that time, so that made things bitter for me. Ang saklap! Putangina...

Anyway, congratulations San Beda Red Lions, 82nd NCAA Basketball Champions.
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odd man out [Sep. 10th, 2006|10:57 pm]
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[emplacement |Tomas Morato Ave. Q.C.]
[humeur |exhaustedexhausted]
[musique |Black Swan -- Thom Yorke -- The Eraser]

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I decided to join my teammates at work for a weekend trip at old Subic. My boss figured some of my teammates would pass their resignation letters pretty soon so he planned for this getaway trip. I realized then it was hard to blend in with my own team. I'd rather spend a thing like this with the other teams. I don't know why, but that's just how I feel with this shit. Looking at the bright side, at least I managed to have fun...even for just awhile. The sight of crows and monkeys roaming around the place fascinated me yet again. It's been awhile since I saw those critters...
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Photoshopped Phlicks [Jun. 7th, 2006|11:45 pm]
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[musique |Fun For Me -- Moloko]

You're bored at work. You ran out of magazines and hand lotion. You got nothing else to do. Hey, why not spend it on a movie?

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Dinner with Sago [May. 11th, 2006|12:52 am]
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[emplacement |Tomas Morato Ave., Q.C.]
[musique |Rose Rouge -- St. Germain]

Yesterday morning, I felt sluggish, depressed and worried. I felt my momentum slipping away…and it’s only a matter of time before I hit the ground. It wasn’t inspiration that kept me afloat in this business. I realized I was just too lucky to have a lot of resources. Had it not been for my folks, I would’ve ended up broke and looking for another job yet again.

All these things have been bothering me that morning. I didn’t even know how it started, but it dawned on me all of a sudden that if I don’t work on my own steam, I would lose all these momentum pretty soon.

That afternoon, it was a good thing I bumped in to my old pals. The band, Radioactive Sago Project and I met by chance in this event held at the Shangri-La Hotel in Makati. It’s been a long time since I hang out with these guys and now I felt as if I was back in my college days again. I got the chance to hangout with them like old times and it really feels good to be remembered by them after all those months. We shared a few laughs and it was great. I almost forgot that I had a job to attend to that time, but it didn’t matter anymore. You just can’t afford to miss times like that.

I’ll resume all that worrying shit later on.
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The Bolinao Getaway [May. 9th, 2006|10:00 pm]
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[humeur |relaxedrelaxed]
[musique |Dieu Reconnaitra Les Siens - DJ Cam]

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Last weekend, I took a 3-day vacation to Bolinao, Pangasinan. I figured I could use some of it just to get away from everything and relax. The island itself is unlike any other I've been to. It's not exactly a place where you could go on swimming. Tons of rocks, weeds and corals could ruin your day. The only thing that's good there are the white sands, plus you could enjoy the aquatic life just near the shoreline. Personally, it's an okay place to be for sun basking and sightseeing for marine life. I just wish I could go beyond the breakwater and into the deep. Now that would've been better...

Now the real reason why we went there is because my mom bought a spot there for her to live someday. She's just working on some few things along the way so she figured she might as well tag us along. Maybe one day I could live in a place like that. I wish I could live in a place like that. I mean where else could you eat two lobsters in one sitting while enjoying the sunset? It's all here.


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Higher Learning [Apr. 30th, 2006|02:54 pm]
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[emplacement |Tomas Morato Ave., Q.C.]
[humeur |contemplativecontemplative]
[musique |Rebirth of Slick (Cool Like Dat) -- Digable Planets]

It’s been awhile since I posted here. For weeks, I’ve been busy going from coast to coast just to bring home the bacon. While it has taken the most out of me, I did enjoy it for a lot of reasons. One of which is that, you get to meet a lot of people along the way. This gave me a lot of opportunity to learn new things from them -- stuff I never learned back in high school or college. I realized now that this is the kind of education I never had...or even if I did, I just never paid attention to it.

At this point, I find it difficult to bring myself up to their level. There are certain aspects of me that still need some tweaking and that’s what I intend to do for the following days ahead.
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Vendetta [Mar. 20th, 2006|09:45 pm]
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[humeur |nostalgicnostalgic]
[musique |Gun -- Gus Gus]

The other day last week, I went out to lunch and on my way back to work, I crossed paths with the only person who flunked me back in college. He used to teach accounting back then, but after flunking us, the chicken shit decided to quit before we could even react. I like to believe that he's the reason why I never got that job I always wanted. I just knew that that day would come. I wanted to confront him, kick him in the groin and nail him with a DDT...but I held myself back. It wasn't worth it. Besides, it was my decision to go all the way with that stupid course. It’s a risk that didn’t pay off back then.

The thought of seeing him definitely brought back bitter memories. But that was all in the past. There was no reason for me to vent out my anger anymore. After all, I already found myself a job I could settle for...and that’s all that matters now.
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The world is a small place [Mar. 17th, 2006|10:29 am]
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[humeur |sicksick]
[musique |Tomorrow -- Thievery Corporation]

I realized that as my world keeps getting smaller and smaller, the more I meet people out there who are related to me at a certain degree. These people are friends, sisters or even ex-girlfriends of those who I’ve been classmates with back in college. It’s amazing.

Today, I’ll have to tender my resignation with the contact center in order for me to move on to greener pastures. All other pending jobs are discarded. This Monday, I start my training to become a traveling salesman...so to speak. It’s not much, but the pay is good and there is definitely growth in the long run.


I'm sick. Bad stomach...bad headache...but I'm gonna have to suck it all up just to get this over with.
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Flickering lights [Mar. 14th, 2006|11:56 am]
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[humeur |relievedrelieved]
[musique |Dark walk -- Smoke City]

I went to my friend’s house the other day. It was about nine in the evening that time. It’s just odd that every time I pass by a street lamp, it either flickers or goes out for good. Then after passing it by, the lights went on again. Finally, it got me thinking already. I guess I should be more careful. I’m taking it as a sign that walking in an empty street alone is just too risky. I don’t want to end up like those lights.

When I got home, it was such a relief. I looked at the moon outside my window –- the only light that never flickers.
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The first week [Mar. 10th, 2006|01:00 pm]
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[musique |Remind Me -- Royksopp]

It amazes me that everywhere I go, be at work or any other company I’ve been getting myself into, I’m always bound to meet people who are connected to me by way of friends or relatives. It’s such a small world.

The call center training has been going pretty well so far. It’s not exactly the kind of career I had in mind, but it seems that I’m blending well with everyone in there. I think I could hang in there for awhile until something comes up. Hopefully, I’d made up my mind about my career path when that time comes.

The only thing that pisses me off right now is the papers. Tax numbers, medical exams and health benefits take the most out of me.
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Big Wednesday [Feb. 28th, 2006|10:39 pm]
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[musique |Riders on the storm -- The Doors]

After quitting my first job as an online teaching associate, I've been constantly applying on different companies that had nothing to do with making or answering inbound/outbound calls or anything that would make me teach Koreans online. It’s not for me to begin with. Besides, I’m not one who loves to follow trends.

However, these large companies I've been looking for turn their wheels so slowly when it comes to processing applications. I’m left with no other choice but to settle for a call center job. Tomorrow marks my first training day. God have mercy on me.

The funny thing is that one of the companies I applied for a couple of months ago called up and decided to schedule me tomorrow for another interview. This company is so slow at processing applications that I already thought I didn't make it. Tomorrow, I'm starting out on my second job and here they are now, scheduling me for another interview. I'm just left with no other choice. I have to show up. After all, it IS a non-call center job.


I really ought to have this wisdom tooth yanked out. It's driving me nuts. When they ask me, "What are my pet peeves?" I'll tell them two things: state of emergencies and my fucking wisdom tooth. I hope they offer a dental care plan.
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